Little things does mean a lot...

it's being a long time i left..left with 1001 stories behind..this is life.no one can predict the future.i've been test with simple and small things that i can't even handle...only Allah knows..how hard i cry.. ..but deep in my heart, i know Allah is always there for me..listening..watching..and why..why..my dark side still can't accept the trials that Allah had given to me??...that's the question i wouldn't know. Astaghfirullah..i am back conscious..i shouldn't doubt Him..it's almost "heart disease".and yet..tears came down rolling on my cheeks..rapidly..half way down i lose hope..i told myself "why am i this terrible? what happen to me? am i give up already?

..i pray and pray...hoping that Allah would give my peace(heart)..keep playing in my mind that i should be grateful for what i have..but what am i confusing about?what am i worried about?...NOTHING!..this must be ridiculous.i worry bout nothing..O Allah!please forgive me.. i've called my mum..many times..telling that i can't do this..do that..almost give up..luckily..im glad..she hear me out..she keep telling me those thing that remind me to get back to Allah..whatever happens..YES!anything happen for a reason~~ for some times..i feel calm..Alhamdulillah..feeling loved <3 class="separator" div="" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> Still..the feeling again..this time, i asked one of my colleague..what she had told me,huh 'makan dalam woii'...she said that when she is in problem or feeling give up..she always think about DEAD..for a moment,i do agreed..she told me, im still young..i can go for something i like..REZEKI is from Allah and is anywhere..AGREED again.. dont worry bout how much u get..ur rezeki will always be yours..Allah Maha Adil..we will have our part..and most of the thing is .."Little things means a lot ^^,"..Insyaallah~ *semoga Allah merahmati dan murahkan rezeki org di sekelilingku..amin.